J
A page you prolly wouldn't wanna spend too much time on; just for me.
Thanks be to God!
Alright before I sleep, just give me a moment to post about something which is rather embarrassing but a short 5 second reflection like approx. 5 seconds ago taught me a whole deal of gratefulness.
Apparently I got pretty insulted by this guy who had to insult me one night. In the presence of about 8 of us, he kinda struck me at my point of insecurity, yes my fat legs. Hahahaha. Yeah so he voiced out something like: “Yeah I agree you gotta run cos your legs have got no shape.” Ahem manners pls. I gotta admit I was burning inside, literally I just gulped and gulped that pint of icy cold water before me. I wonder if my stare was fiery enough. I shan’t go on about the rest of the night TEEHEE. Cos firstly, it’s really freaking embarrassing and readers might start noticing my short and fat legs (honestly inherited from my dad, model material). And secondly, it’s not the crux of my message.
It’s about this man who always walks with a walking stick, someone whom I encounter every day yet nvr really thought of what he’s going through. He’s middle-aged, and I always notice that he walks in pain, with a really strong limp up and down with each step he takes. But just this morning, I noticed even more.. He had no legs, depending on a pair of implanted extensions, he diligently headed to work every morning, and endured the pain. Legless doesn’t mean no pain, you could tell from his eyes, it’s a lot he’s going through.. Physical, emotional, whatever the pain, I salute! I then started thanking God on behalf of everyone at the train station, because we can walk, easily. And this guy, reminded me of what matters the most: “If not for God…”
Thank You Jesus. You matter the most.
This world of me, myself & I
Everyone around me has been going on on the same topic about how fake people in this world can get. I hear it at the workplace, I hear it in my social circles, it’s nvr gonna end. Will it?
Who’s gna be real at the end of the day? We’re all sinners, but we still find the need to judge at our own expense sometimes. Pardon if I’m being too assuming here, but I just think that some things are too complicated for humans to handle. How can you remain happy when you’re just doubting everyone around you – friends, foes, fakes. My oh my, this world is made up of ugly us, isn’t it. ):
In the midst of all these, I guess what’s truly important is not just to sort out who’s worth and who’s not so worth, but maybe to ask yourself if you’re subconsciously conforming to the patterns of this world.. Do you, then, want to remain real even when you know you’re probably not gna gain full acceptance? Let’s struggle to stay authentic for authenticity, well logically speaking, lasts longer than what’s not.
Be true to yourself, and others.
Have a heart
I know there’s no point going on about this, but I’m really kinda pissed by their act of mocking. PLEASE LAHHH. We should learn to be aware & not allow our insecurities to cause us to do something that might be unfair to others. They have their insecurities as well. They have feelings like you do. I don’t know if he heard your mocking and all, but I feel sad hearing about it. You guys even have the cheek to bring his parents in the picture. Monitor your conscience, do you have the right to say those words? Are you God?
I’m really disheartened to see this happen to a harmless man. I don’t care if you’re rich or smart, you need a heart.
😦 I’m not here to bring you shame nor be a bossy prick in your life you know. I just hope that we will all learn to be accepting in ways the world can’t accept, but the church who sees the beauty of God in all things. I know I sound annoyingly self righteous, but just let me rant out my anger yeah.
I’m a kookie monster!
Had Yvonne for breakfast this morning! Yum! Minus the extremely sweet sugar top, gross. Hehe.
Like an alter ego
Truth only, no denial.. Here goes:
There will always be a part of you that remains in the past. Someone told me once, with regards to her old long-gone love; that it’s pretty hard to accept the fact that those words which were once meant for you, is now heartfelt to someone else. I was filled with total empathy. So right. But.. It’s not right to be selfish too. Who’s to say no way. [thousand thoughts deleted..] & at the end of the day, it’s the insecurity of yours truly acting up again. Pfft.
It’s always easy to comment when you’re not in the picture; & loss for words when you’re the creature. Bleah. All you can do now is to give it a shot & trust. Heh, headache. Literally, cos’ I’m blogging in the cab without dinner and I’m hungry and cold and.. Cheers! You can’t consider them complains cos’ I ended with a cheer yea?
Well.. The whole crux of my message is, you can’t blog your thoughts clearly when you’re hungry.
And cold.
Brr.
Heavy hearted night
Sometimes I wish you could read my silence.. 😥
Sigh how do I sleep tonight.
J 